All these wants

I have so much ambition, all these wants things I actually want to do. I have the motivation to do them in my mind but i can't get my body to carry out these actions. It's like I'm stuck but I can move-it's just so hard to get myself motivated to do them-even though I want to. I really want to...I really do. This is my struggle. It seems so juvenile and almost an unreal reality for the normal person-but for me, this is my constant day to day and it's ridiculous to myself too. It's a inner fight I have with myself, and I feel pathetic because of it. I don't want to be this way. I don't. I can't help it.