Thank you for being there via words
Thank you for scheduling me in when it was convenient for you
I don't know how you did this but I really liked you
You're more than the words, you're more than that
I would say but words are just words if you don't behave or act on them
I fell victim to your words they're stronger than the actions you took
I loved every word, I listened I reread.
I replayed them all in my head.
Why, did it end this way?
Why did you think that this was okay?
Don't get me wrong, this is how I feel.
I care about you more than I thought I could.
I care about you more than I thought I would.
It's scary when it happens this way.
I'm glad we spent time together, just stolen moments a stray.
I'll never forget you, the times we shared
What I really wanted was for you to know that I really cared
I really did not want it to end this way but letting you go is what I need to do
I care enough about you to let you know
Maybe this isn't the end and this was not the beginning
Perhaps we got tangled in the middle somewhere or in between
I just like you and you just like me
I just care about you more than I thought I ever would.
Tomorrow we say goodbye.
I know it's going to be hard. SO hard.
I don't want to say goodbye.
Just see you around?
Thank you for being in my life.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for the moments we shared,
The walks we took, the laughs, the struggle, the realness, the ease.
You and I got along so well. My bff.
Thank you for being such a great friend.
Even though I'm letting you go, I'm never going to stop caring.
You'll always be in my heart.
This can't be goodbye.
It just can't.
Don't let me go.
I won't let you go.
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I'm sorry if that's how it felt
If it was as if you were in second place
I know I've hurt you
Especially under the stress of the 'stone, and I'm sorry for that.
I was wrong, and I know it.
True, I'm more than words,
But not by much.
I'm awkward in a crowd. I'm oft awkward with words. I need time - time to think, to ponder, to wonder, to meditate.
My awkwardness and inaction yells louder than I could ever project.
I tend to shy away from the spotlight, and listen to the sounds of others' voices and feelings, their opinions and hurts, their frustrations and triumphs.
I am silent.
I am comfortable in silence, and yes, even awkwardness.
Honestly and truthfully, I'm torn.
Is this okay? Was this okay?
There are two sides of me, two poles at odds with one another. Two sides of the same coin that's spinning with no intention of landing on either side.
One says that there is no way on earth that I can be with you, that we could ever be, that we could ever gaze at the stars and wish we were there, alone and unafraid.
It whispers that I have standards and obligations and a code that I have to somehow uphold.
The other tells me I'm a fool. A fool to let you go. A fool to let this fade into a memory, albeit a storied one. It tells me to tell you that we can't just walk away, or that this is all that time wrote.
That this is the last chapter, and that there is no sequel. That this novela is over, and that the show has been axed.
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This is for you. This is for me. This is our life.
We don't know the end from the start.
The lights flicker. The air grows thicker. I feel miles away, but I'm right here, right in front of you.
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Thank you for letting me know you cared. It means worlds to me.
Thank you for seeing the best in me.
For giving me something that I've never had before.
For the laughter and sadness and frustration. For the long nights of wondering and waiting, waiting for your words to magically appear.
For that burning in my heart that tells me all I need to know. The fire you lit is still burning, and the forest is large.
We were real. We were LEGIT.
We were strong together, a bond so strong that together we were synergy in action.
These words are forever engraved in time, in my time. Our story will be remembered.
You've told me all I needed to know, all I ever wanted to know. Thank you for being you, for being such an inspiration and an amazing bff. I'm honored to be yours.
If letting go was all it took, and we're hanging on to that last thread overlooking a great expanse, then let's let go together, for in that separation, that division, we'll be together and united forever - forever falling as slowly as time allows, for time stopped, time watched, time smiled, and began again.
Time began again.
Distance. Time. Space. LIFE.
This is the most amazing thing I have ever read. This relly speaks to me as I am going through the same thing with who I thought was my best friend. This is exactly how I feel....I kinda wanna send this to her. Of course I would put your name on it, would that be okay? You really took the words right out of my mouth and head...You are amazing! Thank you for this!
love, alexis
Alexis, of course! :) Thank you for letting me know I'm not alone in this...and that other people feel this way too. I would be honored if you used this to talk to your best friend. Hope all goes well!
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