push comes to shove

maybe what we thought we wanted is not what we intended it to be...

i don't know why we do this to ourselves. we pull we push ourselves to make decisions, to do it now, to not pass up this moment. if we live in the moment, then should we not decide what we want exactly in that moment? then we would be able to disregard all labels, stereotypes and boxed in ideas. this will allow us to really be ourselves. our genuine selves, if we do decide what we want in each moment that passes us by, with whomever we are with or not with. it may seem wishy-washy but not at all. it's not like that. or should not be, it allows us to live free of labels, and gives us an unlimited allowance of exceptions. exception to every rule in the book.  when push comes to shove, i'd much like to decide in that moment in time whether i'd turn left or turn right.